suprise

it had been a very long time since my last post.. i just so suprise that u actually rmb my blog. i not intended to let u see tis blog but... maybe 20% i hope u to see tis blog but now i even more worry that u might feel uncomfortable after reading my blog.. soli.. i reali not mean to be like tat.. soli..
somehow dunnoe how to face u..
i guess u even more...
just wanna tell u soli if i make u uncomfortable bcos i reali dun think u still rmb my blog add...

thousand n million of soli
reali soli

down

为什么自己那么幼稚，为什么任意生气，别人明明没有惹你。。。
我的心很乱，为什么会酱？
我变了吗，还是我只是不知道到底自己在乱什么。。
希望这个莫名其妙的感觉快快消失。。。
你不应该想太多，他们只是个幻觉。。。只是暂时的。。。。

exam

sigh... an exam pass by another..
dunno is bcos of my attitude or wat... my friends beside me getting less n less.. even yee yin also
can feel tat she dun lik me anymore..
i admit that i only concern with the ppl tat i can see, tat i think is surrounding me..
i just dunno how to maintain relationship beyond tis
somehow happy that lih jiuan nv left me
n my hometown frien yi chyi, shwu wen, kah bing, vincent, yui qing, n mayb my godbro..
thanks a lot u guys , without u all i really dunno how my live will b
thx for nv left me

nil

do u ever leave my brain?
do u ever leave me?
y when i argue with my boyfriend i only can think of u?
r u the one i realli wan?
r u the one who i miss... somehow i miss?
will i forget u?
will i let go of u?
will i?

hee

after struggle much.. i felt better now..
soli for troubling u.. soli to make u sad, angry o pe che..
u noe tat 'u' is refer to u
10s for giving me such a wonderful memory..
i done lots things tat i nv tot'll do..
it indeed is a gd experience.
no need to worry bout me..
mayb u nv worry bout me..
anyway reali thank u

next time bring me eat 'keki' ya
i dun wan mada mada d oh..

nostalgia

still rmb the 1st time we meet..? i give a letter to u wat u tot is a love letter.. it's funny..
mayb tat time i reali wan2 give love letter, but my courage inhibit me from doing so..
since then we start our conversation via letter..
u say u prefer letter.. more pure.. u hate to change.. tat's y u didnt transform much
bcos of u , i try my best to retain myself.. my pure smell, sound n look..
try to hear stefanie song, fir..
n dun noe since wen my habit is being build bcos of u
pathetic? pondering..
i like to c u laugh, angry, silly movement..all yr shadow keep on repeating in my brain..
since wen i stop loving u? i also dun noe.. o did tis happen b4?
i just noe one day my heart broken... n i start to not hear stefanie song, start to delete wat i've done.. i tot tat's d best way to forget something, saying' time will delete everything'

since then, i have my own life.. but u appear again..
'if u graduate, will u reject me lik d way u reject oba?
'mm.. no .. u r different from her
......
???

u nv have the feeling towards me?
got..
liik tat kind of feeling toward small sis?
no..
(honestly, somehow feel happy.. )
then?
...
since wen u start like me?
one year ago..
y u nv told me?
....
mixing feeling..
happy sad angry

if i noe i'll wait u since i've been waiting for u a long time ago

can i forget everything?
tiime?

hey sorry reply you so late. i also jz woke up.. no la joking. had a great day yesterday , and as u requested i've deleted wat u said to me.. c ya again..

so easy?
y i cant???

......

nv expect i'll use such a high tech, no feel written method to mail u..
last nite was fun..n i get d answer tat i wan..
just..
mayb lik wat u say..ni yi wei ke yi shou le jiu xuan le?/
haaaaa..
since d day i decided not to think of u, i stop listening to stefanie's song; stop sing her song.. until today i 1st hear the song again, alone
crying...
i tot everything can just pass if i dun expose to it , again.. but is tat reali true?
........
wat i can say is mayb we duun hav d gd timing?
mayb if i stil waiting, we may b possible, but it is too late


indeed i wish to mail u, but in the end i decided to put in blog... mayb one day u can discover it..
if not just burried it in my heart...