wat a lonely night

today is my second time to write this.i suddenly realize those i don care are wat i really need to ... how 2 say??? mayb love o ... it is 1.40am now and i need 2 work tomorrow. i q sad now... 8 nobody noe.
as a youngest child in my home, most ppl think i can get watever i wan. unfortunately tat's wrong... i used to b a maid in home.. i juz think my mum is too poor cos no one wan to help her... so i helped... mayb they used to order me.... i suddenly felt tired...really tired..
i will go kl later,i mean in jan, still left 1 month, to where i need to b more independent, to where i neeed to forget all unhapiness, to where i need to rely(is 'rely'? i not very sure, my brain empty now.don laugh if i wrong. > on a person who nv really think about me. actuAlly i not so happy cos he juz.... watever lah i don wan to talk bout him anymore...
after wore my cloth today, i think i really wan to keep fit liao if not....
say something i will feel happy
i'll catch'the incredible" in cinema later, wif my very speacial frien, actually is ex-
all my frien ask me am i together wif him again... no* 8 he really care of me... wat to do, i don hav any feelin on him anymore.. mayb guilty...
i promised my good frien-ghim lan tat i'll back 2 bp very 3month after i go 2 kl 2 climb mountain... heee.. she is a very nice girl...
i still sad....:< could anybody help me?