emotional period

i don noe wat else i can do.. so far.. mayb i too enjoy myself til i can hardly concentrate myself in studies.. i realise that actually i cant accept the true that my result getting worse n worse n worse.. i don noe wen my revolution will come.. i wanna stop this dark ages but it sound like after i regret for a period then i 4get already.. n even worse that i don have any mood to study.. n even sit in front of the book also don have any mood to study.......study also don noe wether the information get into the brain o not.. i hate this feeling.. but who can help me????????

a regret

it's very important to ensure that u like that person then only u decide whether want to continue the relationship o not... i truly fathomed...
i had waited a very important person (for me la) for 5 years.. he never said he loves me.. got feeling on me.. and watsoever.. at the same time.. a person who really treat me nicely appeared.. i don noe i like him o not; i just feel i cant disappointed him.. n i think i really didnt consider so much.. so i accept him..
n now the person that i waited for so long suddenly said we might be possible to be together n start a new relationship.. honestly i really don noe wat to do.. if u're me.. who would u choose?
if i obey my heart, i'll choose the person that i waited for 5 years but rationally i cant cos i'll hurt my bf... what should i do.. i really hope i can be w that one i waited for so long.. cos i noe i love him.. o i just can left it to god?